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doyle ([personal profile] doyle) wrote2004-01-03 09:58 pm

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Erk. Seriously blocked today (I hate writing on the PC.) Anyway, this is the third one of these I've attempted, since the other two stalled too badly to recover...

Day 3 of 12 Days of Ficlets. Today: redemption.


She's in the Slayer Handbook. How about that? Never knew there was one, but there she is, page 324, in the chapter about Slayers Gone Bad. Giles says it's some edition from right before the Council got whacked and that they'll be making a new handbook now, or not having one at all, but Faith keeps the one that has her picture. Doesn't ever show it to Robin, since his mom's on the same page. Like having a kid's bad, same level of bad as killing some people.

She still wakes up thinking she's in the stir. She doesn't ever have to go back there - something about a technicality and Angel's friend with the cool name being a bigshot lawyer now - and that's good. Fucking A. Not like she misses the uniform, or the food, or the cell that made her feel like she'd been locked in a box forever.

Only, now she's one of the good guys again, like she's got out of jail free and passed go and collected two hundred bucks, and she has to teach these little girls how to grow up to not be like her. Things were simpler when redemption meant sitting on her hands and not breaking out and not killing anybody else.

She guesses redemption's not meant to be the easier path. She guesses maybe that's the whole damn point.

She tries not to miss jail.
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[identity profile] entrenous88.livejournal.com 2004-01-03 02:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Great Faith character study. You get inside her mind so well.

[identity profile] maybedarkpink.livejournal.com 2004-01-03 02:37 pm (UTC)(link)
That's very good, I love the way you present Faith and the whole concept of redemption not being easy. I love the poetry on your layout, too. Anna Akhmatova's brill, and W.H. Auden's my all-time favorite!

[identity profile] doyle_sb4.livejournal.com 2004-01-03 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I tried not to duplicate any of the opets, but there's so much stuff of Auden's that I wanted to include :)

[identity profile] maybedarkpink.livejournal.com 2004-01-03 02:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I understand. I'm a total poetry freak. :)

[identity profile] willshenilshe.livejournal.com 2004-01-03 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Once again, you rock my world. The last sentence stopped me hard with its weary cynicism and sorrow. This is pure Faith - I can see her so vividly as you write her. Beautiful!

[identity profile] flurblewig.livejournal.com 2004-01-04 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh wow, that was just gorgeous. I don't think Faith ever quite believed that she was actually good enough to *be* a good guy, and you captured this beautifully.

Redemption

[identity profile] nikitangel.livejournal.com 2004-01-09 10:01 am (UTC)(link)
Wow, love that last line. Great stuff. I like the present tense here as well.