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I started rereading Terry Brooks
Magic Kingdom For Sale Sold
and immediately discovered I have retained very little of this and am now finding it *very* annoying.

I think the only women with words so far are receptionists, and I am over 150 pages in.

I keep stopping and staring into space for a bit thinking
okay but if even one woman was in the room right now and able to speak
this would be a very different story.

Also: I am not buying this guy as a lawyer, corporate or otherwise. Read more... )

Basically he's a lawyer as an alignment, to go with the Paladin.

I and my tiny legal knowledge want to throw a collective of lawyers at this setup just to see how MANY spanners could be hiding in the works that this story has no interest in.



The story as written is being very boring so far. I can only buy the idea this man thinks he can buy a Kingdom and save it if I also think he's a really annoying kind of a person. It's not ideal.



But it is reminding me why I have a collection of books where the appeal is
a woman is in this book and she gets to talk and everything.
Their reread value is less than their first read value at the time, but I am recalling why they were an improvement.

Glinda Go Zoom!

Mar. 22nd, 2026 06:56 pm
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Oooft, I have missed skating.

(For the newer readers, I used to be a roller derby referee. Roller skating - quad skates - was a big part of my life for the back half of my twenties and my early thirties. I drifted away from it after I moved up to Inverness, but I’ve loved roller skating since I was a little kid, so while I don’t really miss derby these days I do miss skating.)

I’m still on my ice hockey kick after the Olympics and one of the knock-on effects is being really aware of how much I miss skating. I’ve been meaning to check when the public ice skating sessions are and try to convince one of my skating buddies to chum me along to a session for ages, and this weekend I finally did it. And it was great!

I haven’t been on any sort of skates since before the pandemic and I think the last time I was actual ice skates was in Princess Street Gardens just before Xmas 2013 when my then girlfriend decided that would be a cute date idea and then spent the whole session clinging to either the edges or my hand! I wasn’t sure how well it would go, but after a slightly wobbly start it all came back to me satisfyingly fast. (My buddy was even rustier but also got the hang of it eventually, we did a fair bit of skating round holding hands like kids because she’s had a stressful week and was getting into her head about it. That was pretty fun too. We had a lot of fun reminiscing about ice discos from our teen years.) The ice was a mess so I didn’t dare try crossovers or anything too fancy. (The kids team had practice that morning, and I don’t think they bothered to send the zamboni out between sessions as we got there at the start of the session and it was pretty roughed up already.) The rink skates are super rigid so my feet are a bit sore from that - actually I ache all over from nearly 90 minutes of skating, but I had so much fun. My buddy gave up after the first 45 mins of so and went and got a hot drink and heckled from the sidelines while I went zooming around gleefully with a big stupid grin on my face. I was high as a kite, all the good endorphins. We’re going back - or at least we’re going to try the rink at Aviemore instead. I cannot stop grinning!

( I do not need my own ice skates. I do not.)

Buffy not rebooting

Mar. 19th, 2026 06:29 pm
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I had been reserving judgement on the Buffy reboot until it actually existed because before that all is rumour
but apparently it is back to Not Existing
so apparently now I have thoughts.

The thing with Buffy is:

We need a theme.
- It has to be a socially conscious theme.
One that reflects the students' growing awareness of...
...and involvement in the world around them.


That's the movie talking about naming the school dance, but compare any given season of Buffy.
We grow up, we notice new and stabbier problems, we realise we are the ones meant to deal with this, however unfair that seems.

And you get that pretty smoothly in the high school seasons, culminating with the theme and practice of Graduation Day.

But there are people who are less impressed with the development of the characters after that.

I read in a screenwriting book that you have to bear in mind that the vast majority of your viewers went to school, but only a majority of the writers room went to college.

The way society is set up for the past few generations we have this unifying experience of sitting in rooms where everyone has to be, being told a bunch of stuff that's meant to get us ready for the world outside school, with varying degrees of success.

But after that everyone's experience fragments, and the viewers reactions cannot be relied upon to come from a similar point of view.

Which, yeah but no but. A, could they ever? And B, Buffy did not spend overly much time in a classroom.

The core shared experience of the characters was
we have all this compulsory stuff to deal with that we're being told endlessly is Super Important
but now there are Things
which are actual life and death important
yet must be dealt with after and around school.

You can build out a lot of experiences from there. Like season six and the quest for more money. There is compulsory stuff, and now, also, Trauma. You somehow have to juggle both.

But part of what makes that heavy is the way even the closest support systems of the main characters simply do not acknowledge the life and death stuff. The trivial and transitory is compulsory, the being attacked by vampires is somehow not a problem anyone needed to prepare you for or admit is happening.

Relatable!

... no really, there is a very light metaphor skin on so much that is super relatable there.

And a lot of that is being prepared for the wrong things the wrong way. There's so much pressure on You, Yes You, Personally, Alone, doing things perfectly right first time Or Else End Of The World.
... exams must lead to the perfect start or life is wrecked forever, etc.

And this is all wrapped up in Patriarchy and how the Important tasks are *somehow* not the ones that Someone needs to do every single day or everyone dies. Home Ec is not a high status set of lessons despite the fact they're actual baseline essentials. You are not expected to make bank by doing the things that keep other people alive. Someone has to clean, cook, care, patrol every night, and hey, look who it is again.

Watchers get paid, Slayers get Called. Patriarchy at its finest, core to the metaphor.

(Making it Patrol, defense safety violence and therefore traditionally gendered and valued differently, is part of the defamiliarisation that makes Buffy work.)

And who can you go to for help?
Actually varies by season, and to some extent having the help crumble out from under you and growing to replace it is a core mechanic.
Parents, teachers, Watchers, government, all the support systems and institutions do what they can, demonstrate why they left the world the way the youngers find it, and crumble out of the way, while the protagonists grow to fill their roles.

Change that and you change the genre significantly.
Horror believes in the injury but not the hospital, in crime but not policing, in the threats but not defenses.
Coming of age stories see all that and say, our turn now.



So you put together all these constraints and you get the framework that the actual plots and characters build out on. You get Giles being slightly useless because he's an older in a story about growing up, you get schools that purport to help but become the source of threat, you get youngers that have to push back and take over.



So what do you do with all that
twenty years later
when you still have *Buffy* the vampire slayer?


It's easy enough to posit a world that still has vampires, but what does that say about *Buffy*? Yes, that the task is never ending, but also, why is someone still in school being Chosen to step up and help with it?

Buffy ended the show by sharing her power, so everyone that can stand up will stand up. Slayers all.
Equals, and within the framework of the show, as grown up as they are getting.

She went from the new kid in school to the general of an army.

What institutions did she set up after that?

How did they fail?

If they didn't fail, why do we have a plot?



And I think this is a fascinating set of questions, if Gen Z ask Gen X about them.
... I just had to look up the likely generation age ranges and apparently Gen Z are the ones who got born after Buffy started saving the world and are at youngest 14 now, so quite the age range there.

What world did they get born into, how did Buffy fail to fix it, who has she become in response to that, who can the youngers go to for help and Why does that fail in such a way we get plot?


Seems like we could look at the world and mine a rich seam for all of that, even if we focus primarily on gender.
If the text looks in the eye the race problems of the original we start getting proper interesting.


And I personally would start with the core concept of Slayer and the assumption that the ability to stake your problems will ever make them go away, but that's because I look at the genres I prefer to read watch listen to and tend to go But What If Completely A Different Thing.

... diplomatic solutions with non humans would change the baseline metaphor so much. but. So many years of BtVS and Angel presenting vampires and demons as basically people? The stabbing gets problematic.



The problem is all this either shifts Buffy into a different character with a non protagonist status, or leaves you running parallel coming of age and middle age stories. Which would be tricky! But the thing Giles had to reckon with in the background where the institution he gave his life to was... kind of sucktastic, and the person he thought he wanted to be in his early twenties turned out to just leave problems for the next generation, well, that's a start.


I think Buffy restarted right now could be fascinating.

But it could not be the same story. Writing the same story already makes it a different story. You would have to grapple with the differences.

Aurendor D&D: Summary for 3/18 Game

Mar. 18th, 2026 11:56 pm
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In tonight's game, the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.
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Thing I want to write about but lack sufficient depth of knowledge:

I have been reading some books that treat Wales and Native Americans as some sort of mystical Other, a fairyland you can visit and notice has a homelessness problem. And it made me think about Torchwood. Because Torchwood isn't doing that.

I have read a Bunch of stories that decide Wales is some kind of mystical theme park, just Other enough to go visit and bring back a bit of magic from. Wales exists to be Mountains with occasional Castle. Also mud. Possibly sheep. There may be a pub. But it is being Iconic and Scenic and not terribly functional.

Torchwood just has the story set in Cardiff, a real functioning city with police and local government and sports events and wheelie bins and people on a night out and just, you know, everything you get in every other city.

Plus aliens, but this is the Whoniverse, so we are real clear by now that all this all is happening in several places, we're just watching the Cardiff team.

A team including Welsh people.

And, yes, an immigrant from outer space with an American accent, but.

Welsh people aren't just the backdrop or the victims or the comedy sidekick, they are the actual protagonists and there to save the world.

(arguments about efficacy and technique are for another time)

The more I read this book that assumes that not only the characters but the reader will identify with white Americans who own their own house and might have met a black person but find Native Americans to be exotic emissaries from a mystic power and or possibly ghosts the more annoyed I get.

And I am aware that there are significant differences between that and visiting Wales
but these books aren't.



But to figure out if it's more than just these two texts to compare contrast and write this up properly I'd need some kind of survey of how Wales was depicted in pre Torchwood media and to read around the topic and actually know what I'm talking about, which, I feel I do not.


It's just winding me up.


And that's without getting on to how some stories treat being descended from. All those ancestors and all that math to figure out how many people you descend from across a thousand years? Oh we'll just be talking about the one of them and being vague and hand wavy.


I have a headache and a grumpy.
New hair is excellent but the going and getting it done is exhausting.

I'll go read some more.

(no subject)

Mar. 17th, 2026 08:46 pm
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Unexpected update: tumblr unbroke itself.
Staff undid the update.
Unusual wisdom.
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I am alive and well, no worries, my grave is metaphorical so far, and yet, for years, having heard this expression for the first time ever I felt it.

It was this musical video that made it happen.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJcG1JXidvU


It is a bit hard to explain. The video has bits and pieces of private lives of various judges in Russia, pulled from their social accounts and their professional ones. Was any privacy laws broken here? Probably.

The judges in question (I didn’t check everyone, but that’s not the point here) were involved in recent political cases in Russian courts, and let’s say it, their judgments were not that just. More like overwhelmingly unjust and cruel, even when technically made according to law. But more often according to political demand.

The song that accompanies the video talks about threads of fate and no guarantees for them when the time comes for another turn of the political wheel. It is set on a melody of a well-known and really old song and has both ear-worming and chilling effect.

AI is heaving used for making the video, but this is exactly the use I find creative.

So why did I feel that way? I’ve been here a long time, and maybe somebody of the old friends remember that I used to be a lawyer. And when I got my law degree, more than 25 years ago, in another century, in another world, I dreamed of being a judge. I wanted to serve my county. I believed in justice and fairness and that the system will work for the people if we have better laws and follow those laws honestly.

I interned at the Moscow city court, and I loved it.

The path from law school to becoming a judge in Russia was a pretty straightforward. I dropped from the shortest path almost immediately for a combination of reasons. I found another job and was quite happy with it, then I found myself living abroad and the dream slowly died. For years I, with some sadness, wondered what if I did fulfilled that dream, what my life would look like. Same as I wondered about my parallel universe life as a historian.

In 2022 all the parallels crossed and all the universes collapsed into one present reality and I was happy that my dreams stayed dreams. Well. Not HAPPY. But I very much not wanted to be a judge in Moscow right now.

And this little video and this catchy song brought afresh the terror – would I be if my dreams came true? Would that young optimistic, justice-minded me become state-minded automaton with rotten soul or a money-driven carefree corrupt sell-out? What case would have become too much?

(no subject)

Mar. 16th, 2026 10:16 pm
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Tumblr staff broke tumblr
by changing how reblogs and replies and comments and EVERYthing works
and as far as I can figure this may mean
tumblr staff can't see all of the reblogs that tell them they broke tumblr
unless they reblog directly from staff.
which is a level of broke that is Special.

Apparently it breaks blocking and breaks the ability to make things unreblogable.
people are still testing that but it sounds. bad.

tumblr not looking great right now.

Me and fandom news.

Mar. 16th, 2026 01:08 pm
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1) I am mildly sad about canceling the Buffy reboot. I am fine with the seven seasons of BtVS and don’t really need more of it. I read some comics, the Spuffy part of it, mostly, and picked some of it for my personal headcanons, but overall I didn’t care about comics as canon continuation.

But I was curious when I learned that SMG was on board, and will appear as older Buffy. Because I love Buffy and I wanted to know how she is doing, and I trust SMG.

Oh, well. I hope SMG gets a project that doesn’t get cancelled.

2) I don’t care about Firefly animated reboot. For one main reason – it is supposed to fit in the canon timeline between the original series and the movie. So it is only going to be a few of missing scenes, basically that will bring us to the story already told, and I am not interested in it. Ditch the movie and go wild! The movie had a very specific purpose, to give a bit of closure and to tell the story to a bigger audience. Now they could concentrate on telling another story. Go to the parallel universe, go after the movie. Bring Wash back (or don’t), kill Jayne instead. Or don’t. Bring Christina Hendricks’ character of many names and many wiles.

As it is announces, it is just not something I want.

3) on the other hand, I am looking forward for the Last Airbender, Adult Aang movie. It seems we are finally getting some information about it, the release was postponed several times, and then they decided to skip the theaters entirely, but I want to see it. And the posters with character designs are in.

4) re-watched Lockwood & Co with my son, and I am still upset about cancellation of it. Could have been an awesome cultural event, if it got a bit more care and attention from the Netflix. Alas. Maybe the story was too anti-capitalist for it?

5) I am also still upset about canceling The Wheel of Time, just as it got really good. I didn’t expect it to run for 12 seasons, but I hoped for more than three. The production was lovely, and casting was amazing, and everyone had just settled in the world and the characters. Amazon had to put its money to better uses, I guess…

6) in things that were not yet canceled I watched half the season of How to Get to Heaven from Belfast, from the Derry Girls creator Lisa McGee. It is same brand of derange fun, but darker and thirty-something friends. Will finish, of course, I loved it, but realized I can’t binge it. Too much. (on a separate note, why won’t they release Derry Girls on Dvd? I would buy some expensive fancy edition gladly!)

Yes, but not *now*.

Mar. 16th, 2026 12:12 pm
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Feeling overwhelmed by the to-do list as usual, so I decided to just write everything else off for this week, and set the days aside for taking the cat to the vet, taking the car to the mechanic, and especially doing my taxes. Yep, just that; gonna focus on that and get it taken care of and not melt myself down trying to do seventeen things at once. Good plan.

And then I checked my email. What was that, like 20 seconds?

There's a thing I wasn't expecting to have to deal with until late May, and now I have to fit it in this week. And it's just a phone call, but it's a pretty big deal and I'm going to have to do a lot of prep for it, both practical and mental/emotional. And gawd, I just want to curl up with my tax forms and not deal with anything else, and instead I'm gonna have to fucking adult and I just don't wanna.

This always happens when I set aside a chunk of time to Just Do This. It's like blocking out the time creates a magnetic field that attracts other obligations. I wanna hide in a Faraday cage for time management.

Didn't see that coming.

Mar. 15th, 2026 11:24 pm
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It looks like the Buffy the Vampire Slayer sequel that was in development isn't going to happen after all.

But apparently Firefly of all things might be getting an animated series set between S1 and the movie.

π

Mar. 14th, 2026 08:00 pm
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Okay, I've got to admit that this is probably some of the best Pi Day news that I've ever gotten. I just found out that I completely missed the fact that Giordano's is going to be opening a restaurant in DC this spring.

Proper stuffed pizza! In DC! I never thought that I'd see the day.

(no subject)

Mar. 14th, 2026 09:24 pm
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I am rereading Terry Brooks Running with the demon and Kinght of the word, will read third part next, but
so far it is just deeply weird that the argument of the story is you literally need to give up on all social connections and Do More Violence
or you are abandoning god.

Like the main Knight took time off to deal with his PTSD by working for a homelessness charity
and it was literally a plot by the Void.

Someone has Issues and it is not on this occasion me.

Aurendor D&D: Summary for 3/11 Game

Mar. 12th, 2026 12:24 am
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In tonight's game, the rest under a cut for those who don't care. )

And that's where we left off.

Book retrieval

Mar. 10th, 2026 12:01 am
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From a certain point of view, since my last entry, I have triumphed over the forces of gravity and geometry and slightly wonky shelving.

From another point of view I am a muppet who knocked a book down behind the book case and, after several not great ideas did not pan out, finally had to empty the shelves and try and lift the whole case out.
Which did not actually work.
So I have retrieved the book by tipping it as far out and forwards as it would deign to go and using the grabby stick.

I think the cover will even go flat again once I leave it under a bunch of other books for a while, which by this point is a best case scenario.
... it's fiiiiine, just believe it is a perfectly ordinary book that you wouldn't personally miss if it did that...

After a quick google, as it turns out, I could get a brand new copy right now for a maximum of £11
which next time I may try to search Before all the shenanigans.

... I think possibly I did the thing where I can see the next step to try and lose sight of if I personally at quarter to midnight need to try it.

*sigh*

Is okay, is all done now, bar the refilling...

(no subject)

Mar. 9th, 2026 09:24 pm
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Only one load of laundry today, but I also refilled the dishwasher chemistry, ran it with the cleaner bottle, and the loaded it ready to wash when it gets full. Also did regular Cleaner Day.

And made myself feel spinny bad trying to get stuff from the cupboard under the sink. I remember why I gave up on the low cupboards but I keep thinking I'll Just Be A Minute and then I have to have a sit down in the middle of whatever task required Sink Things.

It is a mystery under there. I don't know the half of what is stashed. I mean today I found half a dozen empty plastic bags from laundry tabs and I have no idea when I last was buying that sort.

Still, threw out several things and sorted out others, so, progress was made.



Other than that I didn't read listen watch stuff today. Listen seemed Loud and reading seemed like I wanted to read A Book But Not That One. And I didn't want to write the one I wanted either. So that isn't entirely helpful. But I do have Several book so I shall find A Book eventually.

My laundry is down to only filling the smaller basket, which is grand, but is still filling what I would until recently have considered The Laundry. There's at least two more loads in there, possibly three. This was Maximum Laundry.

I think it's because of all the drill and screw noises lately. It's nice that they've fixed stuff but it's not nice that this is week four of making a bunch of random interval noises about it. Still much quieter than the first two weeks but. I miss quiet quiet.

Quiet quiet theoretically gets more done.


But logically they have to complete the work eventually so.


Not a fascinating day really.

I shall go stare at bookshelves again.
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